And this would be the "grimly determined" portion of my education.

What happened to all the hearts and flowers I was feeling all last summer and fall in regards to the marvelous privilige, the challenge and excitement, of getting myself an education?

It's flown the fucking coop, that's what, and I'm not even sure what I'm feeling is grim determination, because it feels mostly grim.

I do not feel like taking more than one class this quarter, but if I don't, I lose my student loan eligibility. Which would be just dandy by me, IF I had an actual permanent job which I could count on to pay for a more-doable one class per quarter for the foreseeable future. But alas, they are dragging their feet about hiring me, so I must slog through this stupid quarter with classes meeting three nights a week. Blech.

I'd love to take the summer off if I get this job, but then again, there is only one class being offered that I need, and it's being taught by a teacher I really like, and it's only ONE class, for pete's sake...

So I don't know what to do about all this right now except piss and moan.

Piss. Pissfuckingshitdamnassfuckingshitpissmoan.

Strangely enough, I almost feel a little better. But not quite.

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